Limbo

Currently on a writing slope... going down mind you. My focus is still on other things my mind is always in another place making it difficult to care about things like SCHOOL and GRADES i have the ability to make a's and b's but the will isn't exactly there anymore. I'm letting some of my a's slowly slip to b's and c's oops. It's fixable maybe. I wish i had an interpreter or an existential detective. Why can't things be like the MOVIES? The problem is that movies usually end on a good and uplifting note they don't show you what happens after that nice and uplifting time in the characters life. What if shortly after they attain everything they've ever dreamed of they get hit by a truck? Or their one true loves has a quicky in the bathroom with another person. What about that? WHAT ABOUT THAT. Life isn't a movie. Life is a trial a game a move to make. So how do I interpret all of this new information? YOU KNOW? How stubborn am I? Is it worth it? If not what is? What else is there? What else what else what else. GIVE ME A SIGN with a detailed description of what that sign means because otherwise are they meaningless? I could receive a slap in the face from god and misinterpret it as a kiss on the cheek from the sun. Is that a misinterpretation? Too many questions.

I B leaves U

A leaves
B leaves
C leaves
D leaves
E leaves
F leaves

Can't grow a garden without shit

Going back and forth from Pure Being to Human Suffering I must trust that everything I'm doing is right for me to continue playing out this drama for as long as it takes to be in a state of pure being all the time or at least at a higher frequency in time and space for the rest of my days here on earth

Playing the role of College Art Student number 632

Notes to self

stop caring what other people think
stop trying
just be
and
thats
it

its okay to be alone, it's okay to be lonely stop trying to fit in to an idea of the way things are "suppose" to be

stop trying

Well

I guess that i just don't know

Looks Good

Tastes Better
Calling Card Games
Remember When
Make it Happen
in the NOW moment
thats what we do
thats how we try
the night sky is bigger
than a lonely river
You swallowed it down
Big and Better now
You're a doctor with a spell
Witch cant tell
It will all be okay
In the morning
I swear to you right now

Yes

The Boats been rocked my friend
Theres only storms on the weekends
Time changes things in a second
My fawn breathes like morning air
counting down the seconds
the way the wind looks in your hair
undulation is about climate control
the meter stops as the clock strikes 10
whenever we think we think of him

Laurie Anderson

Data

Collecting as it were
Masters of Comfort
Behold such a character
The Wolf and the Wardrobe
Something Happened
We don't know What
He'll figure it out
As the tide turns
Infants learned
Imagination stirred
Creation meant something Bold
The overture was overheard
the slippers were slipping
masks over word

Milk & Honey

The door bell rang
I sat there pleading on your doorstep
Tears in your eyes
You wanted to call for help
I wouldn't let you
The dogs came and drank
Tomorrow will never come
Before the day is done
When there are no more
Bells to be rung

The Idea of Perfect. Perfection Escapes me.
But some things come close, sometimes.
Sometimes Things Come Close.
Some Things Take a Long Time and Are far away.
Someone Loves you Some Place Some Where
All The Time
Some Day
I Will Get There.