Limbo

Currently on a writing slope... going down mind you. My focus is still on other things my mind is always in another place making it difficult to care about things like SCHOOL and GRADES i have the ability to make a's and b's but the will isn't exactly there anymore. I'm letting some of my a's slowly slip to b's and c's oops. It's fixable maybe. I wish i had an interpreter or an existential detective. Why can't things be like the MOVIES? The problem is that movies usually end on a good and uplifting note they don't show you what happens after that nice and uplifting time in the characters life. What if shortly after they attain everything they've ever dreamed of they get hit by a truck? Or their one true loves has a quicky in the bathroom with another person. What about that? WHAT ABOUT THAT. Life isn't a movie. Life is a trial a game a move to make. So how do I interpret all of this new information? YOU KNOW? How stubborn am I? Is it worth it? If not what is? What else is there? What else what else what else. GIVE ME A SIGN with a detailed description of what that sign means because otherwise are they meaningless? I could receive a slap in the face from god and misinterpret it as a kiss on the cheek from the sun. Is that a misinterpretation? Too many questions.