Real

I tried to cry today but I couldn't really do it. What happened? I used to be so good at it. I just want a good solid cry and maybe all the daze and confusion will melt away. I don't even know why I'm feeling this way I can't figure out what's wrong with me. I can't figure out how to fix the problem and change the pattern. I'm so scared of you going away from me I don't think i could take it again. My heart couldn't bear it so please please please this time don't break it. Things have been going so well! Why do I have to be scared? I need to be brave. I need to be okay.